Bummer.

Got my period on Friday.

This was the first time that I've been trying to get pregnant, actually ovulated, and failed to get pregnant. :(

Oh well, better luck next month.

Go Time!

Just got this:

Which explains the feeling of toting around grapefruits in my abdomen for the last two days. Today only the right ovary still hurts. Never experienced that particular symptom the last time around. Yeeowch. Praying for only one egg!

And also, today, this:

Sorry, I can't tell you what my wish was!

Trying for Baby #2

Is that an empty fiver of clomid? Why yes, friends, it is!

We're officially trying.

This time around is different and weird so I have no idea what is going on right now. I took the fifth pill on Friday. But apparently the world has changed drastically since my last rodeo in 2009. I didn't have a period this time and I wasn't given progesterone to induce one. I'm told now if you don't have a natural period you just start taking the clomid and call that Day 1. Except then all the days are different than a normal cycle and I have no idea when to expect ovulation. I pretended that the clomid was days 5-9 (what my doc would do with a period) and started testing for ovulation today, Day 11. No line yet; no surprise. So, we wait. I wasn't going to temp this time around because I'm all cocky having a success under my belt and everything. But then I decided that this is so different and it would be nice to have the info. So I guess I better start that tomorrow.

To back up, I was supposed to quit birth control and start the clomid the same month. That would have been easier because I would have had a "period". But oh woe the headaches I was having! I think I told you about my two trips to urgent care. I couldn't take it anymore. So I quit the birth control but I wasn't ready to take the clomid yet. For one thing because any resulting baby would have been due at the same time as C's birthday but more importantly because I was lazy and hadn't been taking my folic acid long enough (naughty!).

On a side note I am still having headaches almost daily. Some days are worse than others but at least no more migraines (knock on wood). I am not sure if it is still hormonal or from my neck being a mess or a little of both. I went to a new chiropractor on Black Friday (they had a promotion called "Back Friday", heh heh). They did some scan along my spine and he proceeded to say, "Your neck is messed up young lady" and then he looked at the info sheet I filled out and said, "Oh, and here you have indicated that your neck is messed up". Long story short he gave me the craziest, scariest, biggest adjustments of my life, I almost cried from relief, and now we are best friends. There is still work to be done to make up for the long time I have been without a proper adjustment but I hope it will help with the headaches. God willing.

Well, I detect that C's nap is over. I will keep you posted on the cycle.

And thanks for all the love on my last post. I still have more than 0.4 readers! Very exciting!

So Much to Say, So Overdue

Please excuse me as I clear away all the dust and cobwebs...

I'm a Hoosier y'all!!

Remember my last post 1800 years ago? I pondered what a resident of Indiana is known as... Turns out that it is actually and officially a Hoosier. What exactly is a Hoosier, you ask? Well, nobody agrees on that but all of the possible definitions basically mean hick. So hooray for me(?)!

Anyway, I've been thinking about writing for all of the past 1800 years that I've been gone but it just seems like so much has happened in the meantime that I just don't even know where to start or what to include.

I imagine I have 0.04 readers left so it probably doesn't matter. So maybe I should just make a really vague bullet-type list and if anybody reads and/or cares and/or has questions and/or I feel like elaborating, then I will elaborate. Geez, my reader(s) are so lucky to have my stellar blog. Here we go.

• Moved to Indiana. Yay, there was never a real winter so my Arizona-fied body didn't freeze to death!
• Being away from hubby for four months was far worse than I thought it would be. On the day that he finally arrived with my dad (and his brother who helped drive) for good I bawled on his shoulder for like five minutes. I vaguely remember my BIL taping it.
• C finally got to drinking and tolerating actual cow's milk, but refused it out of a sippy cup - ever. She now drinks it out of a big girl cup and apparently that is an acceptable way to enjoy milk. For awhile all we had was water (refused juice from sippy cup too).
• Hubby got a teaching job here and likes it but he has to bring work home for the first time ever in his 9-year career because Indiana has all these new teacher performance requirements so he has to make goals, gather all this proof, make formal lesson plans, and a bunch of other B.S. that really good teachers like him should not have to do but whatever.
• My job is in the crapper. Yep, the one we moved 1700 miles for. Very shortly after starting, there were a bunch of layoffs and we were on the brink of bankruptcy (this is public knowledge - not revealing company secrets). We lost almost all of our execs to firing or resignation. Since the layoffs, many more people have left. My department can't pull in any work so I am "temporarily" working in a job that I never wanted. Company is still really struggling. Not sure what my next move is.
• We are on the brink of potty training but putting it off a bit because...
• We are headed to Disney World for four days next Friday!! (Goodness gracious, do I need a vacation)
• Having a total midlife crisis about what to do with my life (career) and tired of moving and being laid off and whatnot.
• My kid is hilarious and cute and charming 80% of the time and a teething, terrible-2's mess the other 20%. So, you know, not so bad!
• Was at Urgent Care yesterday and exactly one month before that for the most soul sucking migraines I have ever had. A shot of ketor.olac and a shot of Zofran and, bang, good as new. It's my birth control causing it and killing me and I am kicking it to the curb and gonna get back on the TTC horse next month. Eek!
• What kind of crazy person doesn't know where they will be working or living 6 months from now and yet is still going to try to conceive? Hahahahahahaha, that's me.

And if that was all I posted today I know my readership would most certainly fall to 0.0001 readers. And so, I will leave you with this taste of our 2-year pics from back in July and beg for your forgiveness and for you to come back to me and lead me to believe you care about me:

This Is Really Happening!

Our cars and all of our other stuff was loaded up today to be moved. Can I just say how much I love a full service move (so far)?!

We are staying at my parents until mom, C, and I fly to MN on Monday. She doesn't sleep as well away from home. She is asking for toys that are packed. She's not herself and cried a lot today. :( I have no idea what to expect once we're away from Hubby.

Probably the next time you hear from me I will be an Indiana-er. Um, Indiana-ite? Indian? Indianan? Hey, the next time you hear from me I will be a resident of Indiana! :)

P.S. Blogger is a jerk today and I can't comment on your blogs!

Can You Telepathically Hear Me Now?

You guys can read my thoughts, right? I swear sometimes I think that. I guess when I was young I had what you might call an active imagination. Coupled with a large entourage of imaginary friends. Maybe my blog readers feel like imaginary friends to me. I can't see you but there you are, reading and offering words of encouragement. And I have no proof that you actually exist in real life as the person you say you are (except you, Laura!). So when I compose these blog posts in my head but don't actually post in reality for a long time I guess I feel like you are all updated.

Basically, I've just been waiting to get this move underway. We visited our new town and secured a rental house. It is only two years old and really nice; I am excited. Except that the main living level, including the master bedroom, has no carpet. We are carpet people and swore we would never have a house without carpet, especially in the bedrooms. That will be an adjustment. But the hardwood floors are beautiful!

So the house is set, the job is set, let's get this show on the road! But for all the emphasis from the company on me starting as soon as possible, the lady facilitating the move sure doesn't seem to feel any sense of urgency. Nor does she seem to know anything about the process. We are frustrated but I am trying to accept that it is going to be a last minute sort of thing. They definitely want me to start the first week of February so last night I went ahead and booked airfare for myself, C, and my mom for the last week in January. At least it is Southwest (love them!) so there won't be change fees if worst comes to worst.

We (mom, C, and I) are making a two night pit stop in Minnesota. My grandpa is terminally ill and no one knows how much time he has from months to a year or whatever it may be. (Actually, when I was 12 he was given three years to live based on how bad his heart disease is.) We haven't seen him in a while so it will be good to spend a day with him. He and my mom have a very difficult relationship and she has been agonizing over the decision of going to visit him since early December. I suggested this plan as a way for her to not have to go alone, and of course I can see him too. There will be a lag from when our stuff is picked up here in Arizona to when it is delivered anyway.

Well, that's about it right now. Oh! But one more thing... when I was laid off in October I said I would give it until the end of the year before I applied anywhere besides Minnesota because we have really been hoping to get back there. For one of the jobs I was super interested in, I tried everything short of showing up on their doorstep. I had an ex-wife of a friend's fiancee looking into it (she used to work there). I had the president of my former company, who is a board member there, hunting down the hiring manager. I applied way back in August and had heard nothing...

Until Friday. They want to interview me.

What?

So frustrating. Oh well. I guess I am one of those people that believes everything happens for a reason. I am going to have to be zen about it and try to stop my brain from having those "but..." moments when it tries to think of ways I could still consider the job. Ummm... I have already signed papers accepting my job and flown there twice on their dime! And I am excited. So that's that.

And now, as a thank you to my loyal readers for continuing to follow my blog despite my sporadic posting, complaining, and long rambling posts... enjoy some pics of my one-and-a-half-year-old big girl (as of the 6th!):

You guys are the best!