Stop The Ride! I'm Gonna Hurl!

Whee-Haw! This is my 100th post! I wish I was in the mood to reflect or celebrate... but I'm just not.

I've been riding an un-fun roller coaster since I was laid off in the middle of January and I really wanna get off of it. I'm stressed, I'm exhausted, I'm emotional, I'm struggling.

I couldn't even begin to tell you all of the decisions we've made, unmade, remade, and then changed. I feel like my life is careening in a new direction but I just wish I had the map.

On a good note I was asked to do some hourly consulting work for my company so that will give me something to do and a little extra money. Unfortunately, it doesn't really solve our problem which is that I really don't see an employment future for me in Phoenix. We have resigned ourselves to moving, but to where we don't know. There was one company here I was really banking on but it turns out things are not good there, they haven't been able to be profitable, and the people who work there are generally miserable. Yay, sign me up!

So where to next? I wish I knew.

Another huge problem is our house and what to do with it. We have only owned it for one year and we think we would not be able to sell it for enough money. A short sale is not an option given some things about our situation and we don't feel good about walking away not to mention what a foreclosure would do to our pristine credit. :( So we could rent it out (ugh, headache) or try to sell it and put some of our savings towards paying off the difference for the mortgage.

There have also been some job opportunities come up that I was super excited about and then learned unsettling things about and that just contributes to the roller coaster.

So, just generally... yuck. I just want to figure out the next step and be done with this limbo.

As far as the good things in my life (and there are many and I am thankful)... Baby Girl is crawling! She just started on Monday and she is going for real now! She is just so cute and goofy and I love her so much! She has been crabby some though, I'm pretty sure teething is bothering her again because she won't let me near her mouth. She is eating baby food like a champ but if you try to get her to try a cheerio or one of those flavored puffs you would think someone was trying to pull her arm off. Meltdown! So I just always put them on her tray while I prepare her cereal or other food and hope one day she will want to eat them.

There's just been a lot going on in my head and I also hate that this is negatively affecting my parents, who moved here to be near us. We'll get it figured out, it's just gonna be super stressful until we can get there. I also was trying out a new web browser and it wouldn't let me comment on your blogs so I have been reading and wanting to comment! I switched back to IE so I could stop being annoyed by the other browser's B.S. security features.

Maybe next time I post I can be less depressing.