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I have been having a Very Bad Week. There have been several reasons for this and I began to feel very sorry for myself today.

First, I am mildly sick. Mostly my stomach is rebelling against me and I have had a headache for I-don't-know-how-many-straight days. This is probably the least of my problems but, at a minimum, just adds insult to injury. And a few years ago I had E. coli which actually really robustified my guts, and I hardly ever have an upset tummy anymore. It's probably hormonal, but I'm not used to this crap.

Second, as I have already explained, Aunt Flow is being a mean old b*#ch. I was trying to figure out what CD1 should be and had only spotting for FIVE days. Thinking it wasn't going to actually live up to it's name and FLOW, I punted and called yesterday CD5 and started taking the Clo.mid. Guess what showed up today? Yes, you guessed it, tampon alert. I have no idea how this will affect whether the Clo.mid will work or not. I'm not very optimistic.

And finally, and worst of all, our house purchase is on the verge of collapse. The appraisal came in too low. I was originally warned that it could be as bad as 45k low. Apparently the foreclosure sales are really taking a toll on values, even more than we thought. I was sure the sellers would cancel the sale and stay in their house. In actuality, it came in 17k low, which only sounds good in comparison to 45k. We have already been waiting for two days to find out what they will do to make the deal work and who knows when we finally will hear. They have been slow at every other step so why not this step. They laugh in the face of offer expirations. If we want to find another house and close before the tax credit goes away, we have precious little time.

So again, I was feeling very bad for myself until lunchtime when I came across this video that a friend posted to facebook:




Wow. It was just the slap in the face I needed today. This guy has no limbs. Yet here he is motivating others. He doesn't feel sorry for himself. He knows he can't change his circumstances, only how he reacts to them. He types 43 words per minute with a single toe at the end of his one disformed "foot". The point of my posting this is not to show how sorry I feel for him, but rather to say, "What the hell is my excuse?".

That's not to say that I, or any of us, don't deserve to feel sorry for ourselves sometimes. We all have our moments and we as infertiles go through a lot that other people don't understand. What we can learn from Nick is that we have no choice but to get back up and keep facing our challenges. Or else we're just lying on our faces, wishing things were better. So I'm trying to stay positive and focus on things I do have control over.

If you are so inclined, you can search for more videos of Nick Vujicic on youtube. There is a great one that is almost 10 minutes long that shows him going about his day while living alone in his own home. It is pretty cool. He is actually a preacher and so some of the videos focus on his speaking about God, which may or may not be your cup of tea. In any case, he is pretty darn inspirational and it was just what I needed today.

So in the spirit of looking on the bright side, I have ovaries that have responded to stimulation in the past, even if they are royally pissing me off right now. I have and can afford a place to live, even if I can't ultimately buy the house I fell in love with. And I can always get E. coli again to recondition my stomach if I so choose. Ok, not so much that last one.

P.S. I know two of you have sent me awards which I really appreciate and promise I will get to soon. :)