Sick. Again.

At least I think and hope so. Yesterday I woke up feeling very nauseous. Then I unpleasntly lost my breakfast. I though, uh oh, the morning sickness has kicked it up a notch. I then went to work very late and was still not feeling great. Against my desire, I opened up to my boss. Turns out he already suspected I was pregnant. WTF?! He said he thought that was what it was two weeks ago when I was sick. I guess he has been assuming this was coming given that he knew about my miscarriage.

In the afternoon, the nausea took a turn for the worse. All I could focus on was not throwing up. I told my boss that I was no good for the time being and that I hoped I could get the nausea under control so I could be functional. I had my mom come pick me up because I was dizzy too and I spent the rest of the day MISERABLE. My head was in a bucket all day and all I could force down was one soda cracker and a spoonful of applesauce. I tried every morning sickness trick in the book and nothing worked. Everything I put in my mouth tasted terrible and was such a turnoff. Have you ever noticed how many food commercials are on tv when you feel like barfing?! I had to change the channel so many times. Then I was also sweating and going back and forth between hot and cold.

That is when I began to hope and pray that I was sick and not nauseous due to the pregnancy. I started having visions of being that sick for 8 more months and even read about a condition called hype.remesis gravi.darum which basically means severe barfing where pregnant women can't keep anything down and wind up in the hospital with a feeding tube and sometimes even terminate the pregnancy because their and their baby's health is so in danger. Dammit go.ogle, why you gotta scare me like that?

Today I am happy to report that I don't feel 100% but am much better and even ate a whole bowl of soup with no incident. I have never been so happy to have a stomach virus in all my life. Thank God! I was also starting to fear not being able to enjoy turkey, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, dinner rolls, jello salad, and pie on Thursday! But apparently I should be prepared to get every darn bug that goes around. They aren't kidding when they tell you your immune system is depressed during pregnancy.

Today, I am so thankful for an understanding boss, a wonderful husband and mom who both put up with my demands yesterday, the ability to eat, and of course, my little baby to be. I hope he or she is doing well. I am excited but very nervous for our first ultrasound next Monday.